A World of Fear and Anxiety

Since January 20th, well actually since November 8, 2016,  a new unreality has dawned in America.  The pounding of chests in Washington can be felt in my own with each new headline.  Almost hourly it seems a new headline breaks or a tweet is hastily released by our so called President.  Each tweet contains false boasts, lies, alternate facts, and conspiracy theories.  Real and troubling matters in need of thorough investigation are hindered at every turn.  When the truth does begin to emerge it throws the so called president and his followers into a frenzy of deflection and denial; resulting in a preemptive framing of new accusations whose main purpose is to distract and confuse by creating a new story or situation.  This circle of deceit has taken on a life of it’s own, swirling about like an F-5 tornado.  The Deconstruction has begun.  Healthcare, immigration, consumer safety regulations,  climate and environmental protections all dismantling before our bewildered eyes.  Hate prevails,  while common decency, civility, respect, and human rights are trampled and rolled back.

You can agree or disagree with my assessment or you may simply feel apathetic because nothing is particularly affecting you.  Whatever your affiliation, beliefs, or opinions, I think you’ll find two facts indisputable.  We are a nation divided and we are a nation full of fear and anxiety.

As someone with anxiety and panic disorders, post traumatic stress, and depression, my ability to focus my energies on my own healing and self care are compromised by the palatable feelings of a nation and world in a flux of fear, anxiousness, and instability.

How do I reconcile a need to focus on myself while trying to stay abreast of current events?  How do I fight my own demons and lend a hand to the growing fight of resistance?  The short answer is that presently I can’t. My own demons want to feast on the fear that permeates the atmosphere. I am not yet well enough to handle the stresses such a fight can bring.

What I am doing is trying not to let my personal demons gather strength.  I am venting my frustrations so the poison doesn’t fester.  Mostly,  I am trying to get creative and find ways to use my own fears and anxieties along with those that are manifested by current affairs to push me on a path of greater determination.  If I can expedite my own healing, perhaps incrementally I can add the space to lend myself to the greater fight ahead.

My plan is simple;  disconnect – reconnect.  I am disconnecting from reading too much news with planned black out days. These will be followed by a structured reconnection with trusted sources for facts rather than opinions.  I think this strategy of disconnect – reconnect will help limit my exposure to all the negativity, fear, and anxiousness.

I have joined a couple of local online groups to keep abreast of local happenings. If and when I am able, I will try to use an event or a opportunity to volunteer as an exposure therapy, the same as I would any other exposure therapy.  A crowd is a crowd.  An interaction is an interaction.  As long as I think the exposure situation will benefit me then I will incorporate it into my therapy, thereby serving dual purposes.

We must be kind to each other and kind to ourselves during these uncertain times.  Most of all, in any guise and in any way…..  WE CAN NOT LET FEAR WIN!


5 thoughts on “A World of Fear and Anxiety

  1. Very well written and very “relatable” for me, personally. There’s a lot of uncertainty and it feels as if things may crumble at any moment. The prospects of that and the unknown afterwards is enough to get my blood pumping hard. I have a certain amount of faith that perhaps all of this will lead to truths that need to be discussed in this country, and that that sort of healing will help us come together in a greater way than we have in the past. Anyway, Thank you for sharing your fears and opinions with us all. I’m notorious for long comments, so I’ll stop here lol.

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  2. My panic attacks have increased ten-fold when I read the news. I live in Finland, yet Donald Trump’s face is in our headlines every single day. Barack Obama’s never was, as he did not thrive in controversy and lies. I did join some groups, in order to keep in the know about what is happening in Trumpland, however, the amount of nonsense posted overwhelmed me and set off more panic attacks. I would quickly leave those groups, not realizing that the “follow” still upheld, and they would continue to arrive in my news feed on Facebook. I then had to unfollow the groups, while dwelling on what I had just read, yet again.

    We are living a nightmare. America’s president is mentally unstable, and his strings are being pulled by a world-class bully while, at the same time, he is being blackmailed by the USA-hating soviets. I only know their attitude towards it all because I follow RT news. It is an excellent source of news, but is commented with mountains of hate by readers, all of whom think Donald Trump is God, himself.

    Love and hugs to you. We need to be kind to ourselves and weed out the lies that come our way (which are frequent). Take care. Be safe. Know you are loved and are understood. While I may not live in USA, the entire planet is suffering from Donald Trump’s actions, utterings and insanity.

    Rosie xx

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    1. Thank you for your comment. It is easy to get caught up in the vortex that is the American news and I understand how it sets off your panic attacks.

      I find it ironic that a so called president who is focused on keeping people out has a good percentage of the population wishing they could emigrate.

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